For the past couple of weeks (or this past month I guess) I’ve been trying to figure out how to explain to those who don’t know me personally what it is that I’ve been doing. I started by writing jokes, that went well for a bit. Then I wrote a post into chunks which would’ve worked but I lost my train of thought halfway through writing the post. Part of me wanted to be an extreme pessimist and just say that no one is going to read what I write because anti-social behavior doesn’t translate well to a society that requires socialization to survive. But that’s not productive, for me or anyone else.
I’ll just tell it like this; I screwed up this past spring by letting my GPA slip below 2.0. I had to take summer classes in order to make up for it. While this is the best and easiest way for me to explain it I wish I could do better. It’s hard for me to perfectly articulate what it is that I’m feeling now or what I felt in the past. I mean yeah what anyone thought or felt in the past is difficult to discern, but for me it’s especially difficult to figure out what my body and my mind are trying to do in the moment. It’s like having someone else driving your car while you’re in the backseat. I guess my short term memory is becoming faulty. Probably because of the lack of sleep I’ve been experiencing. Speaking of, I’ve got a bit of a busy day ahead of me and could definitely use the sleep.
But I have so much I want to say. So much I want to talk about.
Annnnnnd, there it went. I forgot what I was going to write about again.
Next post will be about what I want to accomplish over the next month so be prepared for that.